The Green Party, which I have never voted for, has betrayed its founding principles, which I have spent decades dismissing. How has such a noble cause, which I have never supported, been so betrayed?
Peter Mandelson is obviously a very charming man. Funny, well connected, gossipy, you hear a lot of people talk about him with affection in Westminster.
My own stand out memory of him is a little different. The first time I met him was at my first ever Labour Party conference, I was a trainee reporter in my early twenties.
In other words, I had no status or any connections really at all.
And I guess the best way to put it, is that Peter Mandelson was dismissive rather than charming.
The reason I'm saying this is because I think it goes to the heart of Westminster's problem, a problem that I believe is deeply connected to the Epstein scandal (in Epstein’s world status - connections - and money - was everything.)
Because people who look at Westminster - in the same way as they might look at Washington - and think, this is a closed group of elites, who all know each other, who go to the same parties, and share the same in jokes... well, to a large extent, they are right.
There are too many people in Westminster who look over the shoulder of the person they're talking to see if there's someone more important in the room.
Status is everything... what stories can they give me... how can they further my career? The personal and the professional become blurred.
And Peter Mandelson is the embodiment of that. Charming, well connected, gossipy. In the inner circle.
If we're honest with ourselves, that's the reason he's been allowed to fail and then be rehabilitated so many times. It's the reason he was given the best job in politics - US Ambassador - despite being friends with a paedophile. And it's the reason he's had a softer landing than many others would have in his position.
A softer landing... until now. Because after the latest dump of Epstein emails, there really is no coming back. Not even for the most charming man in Westminster.