I quit my job beginning of this monthβ¦now itβs 3rd week of October and I got a new better back in corporate life easier less mental stress besides the corporate stress lol but yea. Sometimes you have to believe in yourself when others donβt n keep getting mf back up
ππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππI GOT THE JOB. ππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππ
Iβm gonna have my own office, own desk and my name on door. Youβre looking at DTW customs new LOC: Logistics Operations Coordinatorπ₯Ήπ₯Ήπ₯ΉAlexa play closer to my dreams because next is supply chain coordination then supply chain analyst!!!
I have things I wish I handled differently, things I wish I could explain, things I wish she understood about what I was going through and deeply feeling. Which I have a lot of guilt and responsibility I have been carrying around
when something ends doesnβt mean the chance you had was meaningless. Some people come into our lives and change us even if the timeline isnβt what we hoped nor planned for. The love can be real even if the future is uncertainπ―
The most powerful thing you can do right now is lock in and actually change your life. Not talk about it. Not plan it. Do it. The comeback you are capable of is not just for you. It sets a standard for everyone watching and everyone who comes after you.
I describe love as:
building a home,
learning someoneβs habits,
caring about their day,
remembering how they smell,
knowing their laugh,
enjoying silence together,
wanting to grow old together.
I miss her smile, how she smell, how she walks, talks, watching her get dressed n do her hair n makeup, I miss her laugh, corny jokes that make me laugh, random facts, work day facts n conversations, Iβm tired, can you come lay/cuddle with me and beyond
since february I been in shock/disbelief, yearning/searching, bargaining, and deep sadness:/ a lot of shit hit my pride, my identity, and my confidence
I donβt want an apology. I want you to experience the exact situation you put me through so you can understand how it feels to be on the receiving end of your own actions. I wonder if you would still think it was okay if you were the one losing sleep, questioning your worth, overthinking everything and trying to heal from something you never deserved. Itβs easy to dismiss someoneβs pain when youβre not the one carrying it. Itβs easy to say βIβm sorryβ when you donβt have to live with the consequences of what you did. I donβt want revenge. I just wish you could understand the weight of the pain you made me carry.
talk about ha, almost never speak with anger. Always speak with sadness. a different kind of pain rather than resentment. I miss the person I loved thatβs my baby my first love