One thing I hate at this big age is someone who acts like cause and effect does not exist. yes, your actions caused this outcome so why are you acting surprised, playing the fucking victim.
I finally understood that when a person doesn't want you anymore, they will repeat the same things which you don't like and hurt you until you leave them.
Nothing prepares you for the sheer exhaustion of having a partner hand you reassurance, and watching your brain instantly try to translate it into a lie because of what someone else did to you three years ago.