Suicidal ideation, for many, isn’t about death.
It’s about relief.
From shame.
From feeling overwhelmed constantly. From feeling like a fucking burden.
The goal isn’t always “not wanting to be alive”
It’s just not wanting to live like this.
I really need to be consistent with my routines and getting my life back on track, I know I said this many times but this procrastination and laziness is costing me a lot.
my mom once told me “accountability will always feel like an attack when you are not ready to acknowledge how your behavior harms others” and that shit is real.
thoughtfulness goes a long way with me. consistency goes a long way with me. integrity goes a long way with me. you keep showing up with that level of care and i’ll move mountains for you.
At some point you really have to tell yourself “this is not an experience I want to keep having” and stop entertaining things that don’t benefit you in any way.