You did not "lose" your child. You made a conscious decision to murder your child. An innocent baby made in the image of God. That precious little image-bearer is now safe in the arms of God.
All have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God (Romans 3:23). The wages of sin is death (Romans 6:23). Apart from Christ, you have no righteousness and stand condemned. Your works will profit you nothing (Isaiah 64:6).
But God demonstrates His own love toward us in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8). If you will confess your sin to Christ, repent of sin and trust Him alone for salvation, He will save you. He will give you a new heart with new desires. The wrath of God that you deserve will be removed. Everyone deserves God's wrath, but mercy is extended to those, and only to those, who trust in Christ and His work on the cross.
Happy Pride Month from these monsters.
They’re rotting in prison — 100 years, no parole — for raping their adopted little boys.
This is what they celebrate. Disgusting.