@tenel_ka_djo || I never mind! ๐ The DM is perfect for the super long replies but the threads here do get annoying for sure! I hate the character limits!
โThis does sound good. By any means. It sounds like you arenโt telling me everything and whatever it is that you are doing, it sounds risky.โ
Letting out a sigh she slowly wrapped her arms around herself as her gaze rested on the sky above them. Trying to process.
โ โ I've been caught up with certain people in an attempt to keep peace in the galaxy and keeping some disturbing visions I've had from coming true. Your mother doesn't agree. โ
โ He isn't sure how to word this to his daughter without flat out telling her the lengths he's +
โ It's hard to admit it's the same for him, the what-if scenarios of not taking the moniker Caedus and putting his plans into motion still haunting dreams every night.
โ โ Maybe your mother will change her mind and see things my way one day, โ he says, a weak smile present.
might happen. The possibilities if her father came back to them and if he decided to ignore their help once again. She hated to think of what could go wrong, but they had to be prepared.
Sighing she nodded slowly while her gaze searched out the waves once more. She knew her mother spoke nothing but the truth. Even though it hurt to admit it.
โI know.โ
Running her hand through her hair she glanced down at her lap, her mind racing with the thoughts of what -
"I understand why you did it. But I also hope you understand that I have a reason for wanting him to stay away from you. I would never keep your father from you if..." She paused, not knowing how to word what she meant in a way that wasn't ominous. "...he was still โ
didnโt let you in sooner.โ
She didnโt regret talking to him, but she regret with everything in her that she hadnโt come to her mother and told her. Allana wasnโt one to keep secrets and this was her biggest one yet. โWill he be able to help?โ
Wiping at her eyes she sniffled quietly as she listened to her motherโs words. She wanted to hold onto the hope that her father could change, but it was becoming harder and harder to do so.
Nodding slowly, she looked up to meet Tenel Kaโs gaze with her own.
โIโm sorry I -
"I would like to hope you are, but I have not spoken to him..." Tenel Ka had been too nervous to even reach out in the Force, afraid of the darkness she might have felt coming from him. Feeling that in their connection, something that had been so warm and welcoming for so long, โ
โAm I making any difference when we talk?โ
She couldnโt help but wonder if she was a pawn in some game, but she also didnโt want to think that she was. He seemed to genuinely care. However, was it something that he was able to do? To genuinely do?
Tenel Ka could feel her daughter's mood plummet in a heartbeat through their connection in the Force and she hugged her tighter, letting out a sigh.
"It is up to him. He has to be convinced to want to try to be redeemed himself because we cannot do it for him."
Allana's question brought a memory of Ben Skywalker, asking a similar thing. There were so many who wanted Jacen back, but that didn't matter to who he became.
"What took over your father only wants control. He could still love us, but the desire to be redeemed is absent."
Sniffling quietly, the tears trickled down her cheeks as she was pulled closer to her mother. Resting her head on Tenel Kaโs shoulder she closed her eyes as she tried to keep it together.
โCanโt we help him? Canโt we do anything?โ
Feeling the sadness from her daughter, Tenel Ka wrapped her right arm around the girl and pulled her closer, keeping her gaze locked on the water.
"I do want to trust that his worry is genuine, but I desperately wish he was dealing with his worries in a... sensible manner."