you consume content about people doing the thing instead of doing the thing. their interviews, their processes, their behind the scenes - feels adjacent enough to the actual work that it satisfies the urge temporarily. then you close the video and you’re still exactly where you were, just more informed about how other people moved while you stayed still.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things that are so over, the courage to say fuck it we ball, and the wisdom to know when we are so fucking back