I just saw a quote that said, “You worry too much for someone who figures it out every time” and I feel like I’m not the only one who needs to hear that.
Nobody hired you to have a vision for their organisation. They hired you to execute theirs. The day you confused your job description with a leadership mandate you didn't have, that was the day the politics started. And you never saw it coming.
A lesson I learned this year is that a person's capacity for growth is directly linked to how much truth they can face about themselves without running away.
Whatever you do, pray for the ability to see your own sins, your own hypocrisy, and your own shortcomings. Never lose sight of that— never get so carried away pointing fingers that you forget you, too, have abscesses that need tending.
Your obsession with trying to understand why something happened to you is what keeps you in a constant loop of overanalysing. You pick apart the situation, the person, the reasons, and then circle back to it again. This is happening because you’re struggling to accept what has actually happened. You’re struggling to sit with the reality that it broke you, that it hurt you, and you’re trying to avoid the feelings that come with that realisation.
People will assume you’ve never been through anything because you do not have a victim personality and your trauma is not your entire personality. We grow from tribulations over here, not pity ourselves.
It’s humbling when the pieces start to come together and you realize God was working behind the scenes the entire time… even when you were going through your darkest moments, thinking He had forgotten you.