Then I started losing weight and was thrilled. And kept going, got around BMI 12ish. Then a bunch of bad shit happened and I couldn't cope so now I'm fat again for the third time ๐ฅด๐ฅด๐ฅด๐ซก
My mom coped with her emotions by eating, so anytime I was upset as a kid "here's some food!" "Have a snack" and food was also used to celebrate everything, by going to a buffet :")
She always told me how strong I was going to be by how much I ate.
I wanted to make her happy and proud so I always ate as much as I could. Binging. Binging. Binging. Even if I didn't like the food I'd still eat it. All the way up till I was 17. Moved in with a friend, his family didn't eat hardly as much and I noticed. So I didn't eat as much-
@tracheussy Never buy drugs online, go to a dive bar. like I was 15 (in2015) hanging out on the porch of one out back buying all kinds of garbage lmao. Go to the arts section of a collage and find some hippies. So many better options lmaooo. I'm sorry you got scammed tho, that sucks ๐ฅฒ