Mella

Venting anonymously babes 😚 tis where depression, anxiety, and all that good(𝚗𝚘𝚝) stuff (TW)

[Mella @anonbittermella]

I hate being around people. It’s not because they did anything. It’s just feeling lonely by myself is better than feeling lonely around people. It feels like a mockery of my pain and I fucking hate it.
#loneliness #depression #anxiety #mentalhealth

[Mella @anonbittermella]

@triederrors 🍰🍰🍰

[Mella @anonbittermella]

@triederrors I’d say don’t think of them as different personalities but the different parts of your personality. Maybe our perception of personality is too narrow.

[Mella @anonbittermella]

Can we talk about self-care and love?? Like I just got my nails done and suddenly I’m feeling my inner material gworl✨💞 I feel like I look really nice so I feel really nice yk??
#depression #anxiety #mentalhealth #selflove #selfcare #materialgirl

[Mella @anonbittermella]

My mouth and mind hurts. I have a toothache but I don’t know about the other one.

[Mella @anonbittermella]

@balancing_b No problem 💫

[Mella @anonbittermella]

@balancing_b Euphoria (HBOMax), Blackish (Disney+), Ron’s Gone Wrong (Disney+), Julie and the Phantoms (Netflix), Raising Dion (Netflix)

[Mella @anonbittermella]

-maybe I should give the outer world a try, yk? And then people say “Do both!!” and as nice as that sounds, humans unfortunately have limited time and energy. I’m tackling goals that require an immense amount of my time and energy so I have to choose wisely. Difficult decisions..

[Mella @anonbittermella]

Another night of thoughts troubling me. I’ve tried the whole “it’s the future, don’t worry about it yet” thing but this decision is really important and I don’t want to spend my life doing something I don’t want to because I made the wrong decision.-

[Mella @anonbittermella]

-this inner world I’ve spent years developing. But with inventing, it doesn’t have to be some fantasy in a book, it can be real!! I have an undying passion for math and science and just the inner workings of our universe. I’ve been living so many years in this inner world that-

[Mella @anonbittermella]

And it scares me even more to think there is something wrong and they’re lying to me. I get people aren’t ready to express their pain but knowing that doesn’t change that what I don’t know makes me afraid of that person.

[Mella @anonbittermella]

I’ve realized I can only be close to people with visible flaws (behavioral, emotional, mental, etc) not to make me feel better about myself but to help me remember they’re actually human. I don’t know why but the concept of a spiritually unscathed person scares me.
#mentalhealth

[Mella @anonbittermella]

Y’all remember that important person I hurt? I apologized. They told me how I make them feel. I thanked them for sharing. We are not longer friends. I’m not sure if I’m actually okay or if I’m numb to the situation.
#depression #anxiety #guilt #mentalhealth

[Mella @anonbittermella]

Fun tip: Don’t suppress, express!! I know I’m the one saying it but I still have a very hard time doing this. Then again, I made this twitter account to do exactly that lol
#depression #anxiety #mentalhealth

[Mella @anonbittermella]

Sometimes, it feels like I have no friends and no one wants to talk to me until there’s something wrong and it becomes apparent that there’s something wrong. I get they want to help but can they talk to me when I’m happy too??
#depression #anxiety #mentalhealth

[Mella @anonbittermella]

Confession Time!!!: I hurt the most important person to me to an extent that is unforgivable. And I didn’t mean to and they never told me it hurt them so much. Now I lie here wondering why they still deal with me, guilty and depressed.
#depression #guilt #anxiety #mentalhealth

[Mella @anonbittermella]

I was a bouncy happy bubble of joy earlier and now I hate my personality, wanna fall down a flight of stairs, and wish I was never born

[Mella @anonbittermella]

Babes, I just touched a boner for the first time. My partner and I were hanging out at the park and messing around and things got a bit…interesting.

[Mella @anonbittermella]

I tried doing that thing where people wake up early in the morning to run and it was nice for about 2 minutes but then my asthma kicked in and now currently fighting for my life lmfaooooo
#asthma #anxiety #depression #mentalhealth