guys i liedddddd 😭😭😭😭 i actually want it 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 i want it so bad 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 i want it so bad i almost threw up on the floor 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 so bad it’s consuming me 😭😭
i'm gonna be so honest... i'm so much happier when i'm starving myself, like i can actually engage in my hobbies, feel more confident, and i hate myself less. otherwise i'm just falling into depressive episodes, ghosting everyone, and fucking up every other aspect of my life