Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖

hw: ??
sw: 93kg / bmi 30.4
cw: 76.3kg / bmi 24.9

⋆˙⟡ 175cm

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

@otterexia Well I love youu

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

@mewlissey Its not technically impossible but realistically no if you go to the gym you’d be able to better preserve the muscle you already have but being in a big deficit impairs lean muscle growth thats why gym bros bulk to maximize muscle growth and then cut

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

Officially have to retire one of my favorite pajama pants because they fall off now even when I roll them up

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

@dainty4nne But everyone is definitely different and there’s so many ways an ed manifests and takes form the human brain is so complex

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

@dainty4nne I personally think my disorder is me because I am actively choosing to engage in it but I think it changes when you want to recover but you can’t because of your intrusive thoughts and I think at that point it feels like an evil voice forcing you to continue against your will

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

I eat a whole pack of pastrami everyday because its only 85 calories but apparently that increases my risk of colorectal cancer by 18% I’m just gonna ignore that statistic

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

@bluedamzel @eatyourmakeup_ Right I space it out and especially eat before, uni, work or some other activity rather than dinner time when I don’t need energy

[romy ౨ৎ @perfbeautiful]

a vintage thinspo thread!

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

I’m so happy that I’m no longer a teenager I was actually demented and I was always scared of growing up as well how could I have ever wanted to stay that person

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

I’m so sad I don’t like cottage cheese anymore why do taste buds change

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

I immediately get bloated and my stomach feels weird after eating anything

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

Breakfast ! (234c)

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

@larry_devin @growing_daniel Honestly you are only alive once probably and you’re in control of your reality and what gets to you I don’t understand why you’d want to live a life where you’re getting annoyed by little things

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

@larry_devin @growing_daniel Sometimes I’m getting into ubers and the driver is already in a pissy mood and this is a common sentiment it feels like the driver is just searching for the littlest issue. I’m saying if someone accidentally slams your door why are you so moved by that you need to meditate

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

@larry_devin @growing_daniel I actually don’t care if they’re on the phone I was just saying lol. But fair enough you don’t know me and I could be ignorant to my bad habits. But bad ratings for no reason do happen. And the reverse is true there are people who have even thrown up in ubers with high ratings

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

@larry_devin @growing_daniel But it’s okay for you guys to be on a phone call the whole drive? Why do I need to talk to the driver I’m a quiet person if my driver starts a convo I actively engage the whole ride. I’m paying to get dropped off not to entertain you. Just be happy in life don’t search for issues

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

@larry_devin @growing_daniel I think some drivers are just haters cause I wait outside for my ubers, I smell good, always sober, I pretend to be interested when my drivers talk otherwise I greet them and then put headphones on, I always say thank you after my ride and I don’t slam doors and my rating is 4.62

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

There was also orange creamsicle but thats not my personal taste

[Sian ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @beforesian]

Look what I found today when I stopped for gas 😍