the drug worked at first but eventually it stopped. I sat there awake, wired but devoid of euphoria honestly wondering what the fuck I was actually doing. I decided I was done. But by that point I was someone else. If you love an addict it's an unenviable situation for you absolutely cannot save them, you probably can't really even help them, all you probably do in such efforts is enable that's it. You have no other choice but to walk away because to do anything else is futile, could be harmful and you are no use to them if you go down by staying too long and being drowned by the chaos as collateral damage. Shame is of utterly no use at all. When we feel shame we are incapable of believing we can be any better and we sit a fester we do not improve. Self forgiveness and compassion is so important it is not saying what you did is ok it the act of admitting to your shitty deeds, taking responsibility and acknowledging that although none of it was ok, you are human you fucked up you can do better. Self reflection owning your ugly bits is empowering. When we see everything about who we are in the plain sight of day we can deal with it all so much better we can be better humans. When we stop spending all our time consumed by looking inward at our pain our needs our whatever and start looking outwards and considering others when we stop being selfish when we make sacrifices the world suddenly becomes so much bigger brighter and more wonderful. Relationships will keep us well you suddenly respect those you love rather than take people for granted and there are lines in recovery that you can no longer step over because you suddenly realise how fucking lonely and miserable that path was and if you are lucky so very lucky like me you realise too how much you have to lose and that is unbearable. You have a bad day? You develop other tools. the whole "fuck it I'm gonna get cooked" is just no longer something I could consider. Recovery is possible. Addiction is a lethal disease. I am no better that the addict who is still using still struggling, I really mean that, I'm not special. I'm just fortunate to have made it to a different point in the process alive. God only knows how. If I can do it anyone can.
🚨#BREAKING: Watch as brand new footage showing the moment a 37-year-old man was taken down by federal ice and border patrol agents in Minneapolis, Minnesota. Officials say he was armed and legally carrying a firearm with a permit when the confrontation occurred.
The red circle identifies the 37-year-old man who was taken down during the incident.
From r/Minneapolis: video appears to show ICE shooting (killing?) someone else just now at 26th and Nicollet.
I have no way to confirm this but here's the video. (From u/pecos_chill)
Snorted coke off a Mötley Crüe cassette case in the front seat of a lowered Escort GT at a Ratt concert back in 89’ we didn’t have social media back then so I’m telling you now.