When you realize you've never been put first most of your life, you're just the person who fills the void in people's lives until they don't need you anymore.
one of the saddest things to realize is that someone u thought loved u genuinely was only using u as a placeholder for their own loneliness and desire for romantic obsession and the second that idealization wore off they stopped giving af abt u completely and discarded u
It's a strange feeling when you realize no one has ever fought to keep you. Not really. You've been liked, appreciated, maybe even loved in small ways, but never in a way that made someone say, "I can't lose you." And after a while, you stop expecting anyone to choose you like that.
She not mad because you wasn’t ready she’s mad because you dragged her back into pain she had already healed from. She’s mad because you tricked her into believing it was real. She’s mad because she trusted you when she knew better. And most of all, she’s mad because she wanted you to be different so badly. But you wasn’t.
a hardest pill to swallow is that people will hurt you. dehumanize you in so many ways and not feel badly about it. they won’t feel a thing actually. they’ll move on with their day, their week, their life, happy as ever but there you are, crushed. loss of appetite. loss of sleep.