i hate how my brain works these days like i can’t help but think about how i’m absolutely nothing in this world like im smaller than a speck of dust and everything that i do/pursue is for nothing but to feel included in a bunch of social structures. everything feels so made up
i could just stop caring about all the “rules”around me and live life whatever way i want but i have this feeling that that would be incredibly miserable for me considering how much i care about validation