Evilsweetpea

Just a place to vent, share games and crochet. Expect waffle about mental health and being a carer. Also cats 🐈

28, lesbian 🏳️‍🌈, lgbt+ friendly 🩷

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Guess what? Still trying.

I at least got through to someone on Thursday who sent an email with my request rather than just me leaving more voice mails.

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Been about 3 weeks of trying to get hold of the pyschatrist. I haven't called for a few days because I feel like I'm annoying them.

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I really am sick of my brain

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@knefelek Good luck x

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@Milkyt4n Well it's the nhs, it's struggling. I've heard worse sadly. Hopefully I'll get through soon, you can see why I stopped taking a med that was giving me side effects when I can't get through to anyone though.

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Any sh getting worse is what it will say. Feel like shit.

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Now I don't post about as much personal mental health stuff I really feel I've lost an outlet. Tried journaling but it doesn't feel the same. I wonder why. I guess people who get it don't see it? I liked having people get it. It felt less lonely.

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@knefelek08 Haha true, I mean your eyes and how you did your make up looks good 👍

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@knefelek08 I love your eyes in this pic!

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Tablets did not work out but hopefully when I can actually talk to the pyschatrist I can sort something out

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Just messaging into a void again haha

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I'm gonna be blunt - I just want to hurt myself. Gone through the usual distractions. Tried some stuff I learnt in therapy. Just bloody tired.

Anyone had anything that has helped them?

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I could really do with a community but this time a safe one, I feel like shit

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Today has not been a good mental health choices day. It's embarrassing

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@Milkyt4n From what I do know about you I wouldn't say so, did something happen? x

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So far I don't feel any improvement on these tablets but I don't feel worse at least.

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@sunnysbraindump Ooh what did flavours did you get? x

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Forever starting new crochet projects

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Pyschatrist appointment actually went well 🩷 I'll take the little win haha

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@Milkytvn Thanks x

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I have a pyschatrist appointment tomorrow and I really want it to be helpful. I'm nervous it'll go bad again.