FullBlownSchizo

Letting my crazy hang out

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

I know that you don't know me, but I'm kind of a big deal.
I mean, not anywhere outside of my house....
Or in my house, but to me.
Ok, I'm a big deal to me.

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

@dominos I would like to submit a complaint against the store in Camden NJ. Half my order missing and when I call to complain I am hung up on. The store is nothing but problems.

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

@Matt_Pinner Never worked McDonald's

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

Banks will hold your money hostage and then question you about why you need it. Because it's MINE!!

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

@PNCBank_Help How do you receive my money from zelle and won't release it to me. You said you received it then still try to blame zelle. How? You received it. I just want my money so I can be done with this bank.

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

I am done with @PNCBank They received my zelle YESTERDAY. Sent me an email YESTERDAY saying it was received and your money will be in your account in mins. No money. Talked to rep this morning. She's saying yes they received but I won't get it for 3 days. WTF

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

Why is it so hard to get a call back from @TMobileHelp Spoken to reps over the phone and gone into store multiple times and they keep promising a call back. I have not heard from anyone. My husband passed, I need to get the acct changed to my name. Been OVER A MONTH and no help

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

He put me through hell and the icing on the cake was learning about his affair.

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

When you lose someone, your mind automatically recalls the good times. I wondered why the same few kept replaying in my head, then I went back and reread my tweets, journal entries, and poems.

That's when I remembered how unhappy, mentally abused, and neglected I was.

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

Today would have been our 13th wedding anniversary. Instead, I'm sitting here alone, next to his urn holding his robe. We almost made it. My husband passed 36 days ago and I can't stop crying. I miss him so much.

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

How do I go on knowing that it was all a lie?

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

There was nothing in this world that I wouldn't do for him. I gave him my all. The day he died he took a huge part of me with him. Then, the floodgates opened & I saw all the years of lies & betrayal. I can't confront him, I can't get those 13 years back & I can't stop hurting.

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

Realizing that the one you love more than life itself loves someone else is an unbearable pain.

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

I've never experienced a pain like this before. I haven't slept since it happened. I dont know how many days it's been. Sunday was the day my soul died and Monday the illusion of our life together began to crumble.

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

The more I try to think of the good times, the more I realize that those good times were all lies.

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

It is so easy for them to tell me to put my hurt aside. They don't know how I feel.

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

There are no words to describe how i feel right now. I lost the love of my life only to find that our entire life together was a lie.

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

Found out the day after my husband died that he'd been with another woman our entire 13 years of marriage. He'd been giving her money daily and telling her that I did nothing for him. I've seen the cash apps, emails, and pics.

There are no words to describe the pain.

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

My husband died last night. I feel so numb and it's like I'm in a dream waiting to wake up. I keep telling myself that he's going to be here when I wake up.

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

Where they are is where they want to be. No point in trying to force them to spend time with you when they are happier elsewhere.

Feeling like shit is just a waste of your energy. Fuck it!!!

[FullBlownSchizo @fullblownschizo]

They deceive you and when you finally get a peek into what's been done in the dark, they tell you that your eyes lie.

Why?