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Troublemaking & bobcat training (training to become one). Weekly essay on The Fluent Self. She or they. Black lives matter. End border patrol.

[Havi same handle at the blue place @havi]

Pretty sure runner's high is just Stockholm syndrome, except the person who has kidnapped and tortured you is you.

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(anyone is welcome to also do this and keep me company)

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wasn’t feeling brave enough for new years wishes so took the roundabout playful back way into learning about what I want, care about, hope for & crave, wrote about apples & laundry day & Tatterdemalion Life https://t.co/99AVQUNQ88

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also the number of emails I have is maybe a million?? so doing 20 minutes of VANQUISHING ops / low hanging fruit / Make The Number Go Down

[Havi same handle at the blue place @havi]

Kind of a brutal week and the energy is MOLASSES, but I did some entry for solstice and thought about the things that help, and how to do/have more of them in my life

Wrote about that, ritual, the vulnerability of trust, some deep dark winter wishes

https://t.co/ccc92Sp678

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also featuring some thoughts on teetering and striding (both are interesting), and what else is there in the terrain of heartache beyond the chasm of anxiety and the pits of despair

gonna have to start doing some map-making but what if that is also interesting!

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wrote about hope as a practice, and seasonal protocols and navigating darkness, and also about learning to breathe into my courage-heart, and some things I am learning or re-learning

https://t.co/GFY4DSNbgz

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@claireofRA hahaha amazing, it’s so wild how often a truthful no just gets you nowhere (which seems very unfair)

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this is the stuff that really gets to me: sure it didn’t kill me but I did spend much of two years in bed, regularly run out of energy doing small things, and can’t survive like this so actually it’s not a function of numbers of death?

[Dr.xvi79 @DXvi79]

My yearly appointment with doctor at work.
Her: I see you still wear your mask?
Me: yes
Her: you know Covid almost doesn’t kill anymore?
Me: so prevention is just about avoiding death or also about avoiding chronic conditions impacting quality of life?
…
That was a good start…

[Havi same handle at the blue place @havi]

Talk pie-based freedom celebrations to me, and other wishes! I did a review & some journaling about getting through a Known Hard Week / Holiday, what worked vs what I might like to do differently next time, and also wrote some Very Personal Ads

https://t.co/UbLdHEXnkr

[Havi same handle at the blue place @havi]

@claireofRA That sounds so stressful omg, glad the next time was better!!!

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sounds like a lot but it all fits haha what we are in trying times

also there are puns

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wrote about my oddly specific holiday depression & seasonal angst, about my imaginary test kitchen for alternative feast days, processed a Big Feeling, talked to the cowboy in my head, and made a list of what I do when it feels like I can’t do anything

https://t.co/RZn40v6VJl

[inefficient rhubarb snackowski @snackowska]

you can leave twitter but you can't leave social media even if you wanted to. you've used it for so long you no longer have interiority. you only have posting, you'll always come back

[Havi same handle at the blue place @havi]

both/and, etc

come visit the museum

also giving out Emergency Calming Techniques

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wrote about being in the reeling times - both in that everything is reeling, and that I am reeling in the mystery, in the sense of whirling but also the sense of fishing…

tried to conjure some wisdom for all the reeling

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okay well actually I wrote about an imaginary museum of shitty breakups by text, with a special wing devoted to the one I got that started with “love a four day work week lol”

https://t.co/y3mu0CCg7Q

[Michelle Allison @fatnutritionist]

the only thought I have about the election is that a lot of people worship power

the more nakedly aggressive it is, the more they fawn, the more they identify with it in the hope of finding safety in its shadow, or experiencing some vicarious thrill they'd otherwise never attain

[Havi same handle at the blue place @havi]

Okay, these are challenge days (understatement!), I wrote about the process of recalibrating towards and for a challenge and the many challenges to come

And also about some challenges we can *choose* along with the ones we are being dealt.

https://t.co/0fonRUAr6h

[whalefact @awhalefact]

very few whales are legally allowed to vote, so please, for the love of god, go vote for them

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And a cool pic of the wild sky above my friend’s house

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We are taking some election day breaths, and doing whatever helps, and acknowledging that the vibes are yikes and that none of this is fun.

Also: gelato, a little hedonism at the end of the world, and nourishment for the collective

https://t.co/fsBl3I12r1