My therapist always starts our session with “How are you?” and I always say “I’m good!” and then spend the next hour talking about how I am decidedly Not Good.
if you catch yourself BEGGING someone for…human decency? a response? time together? clarify? respect? some compassion? some kindness? you need to make a step back & realize you’re begging someone for bare minimum. that’s ridiculous beneath you. fuck that shit.
You have not yet met all the people who will call you by your name delicately and intentionally. You have not yet met all the people who will treat you with grace and compassion. You have not yet met all the people who will look at you like the stars are dancing in your eyes.
at least you showed up authentically. at least you moved with honesty. at least you were direct with how you felt. at least you communicated openly and maturely. at least you tried. at least you never reciprocated their cruel behavior. your actions are a reflection of you.
People think depression means your sad and crying all the time. Depression for me is being stuck in a twilight zone. i can't think , i don't respond to things , nothing is interesting , i just feel empty. not sad , just blank. I have a lot of days like this and they are hard .
I admire women who leave. idgaf if you left after the 1st time or the 12th time I admire that shit! idgaf if ppl was calling you dümb for 11 years but in the 12th year you decided you was done. it takes ALOT of strength to break a tie. it takes ALOT of self love to choose yo self