Krys

dear diary

[Mila ✧ @aip551]

I’m at the age where I understand that paying a little extra for convenience and comfort is absolutely okay.

[𝖗𝖊𝖉✞ @_redfeels]

please don’t ask about my hobbies i lost interest in life by 8th grade

[Krys @krystlx]

i'm just a daughter missing her mother

i'm just a sister missing her brother

it's lying awake in the dark crying until your chest hurts o' clock ⏰😭❤️‍🩹

[Krys @krystlx]

those memories are precious sometimes they also remind me of the reality that i can never reach you i think that's what hurts the most not the memory itself but the distance the impossibility

the fact that love still exists but it has nowhere to go

[Krys @krystlx]

when i say i miss you it doesn't always feel like pain that's the strange thing it feels like emptiness pain is something sharp but emptiness is different

[Krys @krystlx]

it's the realization that you're simply gone & i can't find you anywhere anymore you're not in another room you're not a phone call away you exist only in my memories now

[Krys @krystlx]

i miss my 🌈 partner in crime so bad his passing is something i have never truly wanted to examine too closely maybe because i can't maybe because there has already been too much loss in this family too many goodbyes too many empty spaces left behind

[Krys @krystlx]

suddenly i realised how much i miss my mom not in the polite manageable way that grief is often expected to become after enough time has passed

i miss her voice i miss hearing her call my name i miss my og pokémon go buddy 😔✌️

[Krys @krystlx]

i can't sleep & the voices won't shut up until i get this out so i guess this is love with no where to go

the night is quiet somewhere in that silence a wave of grief found me or maybe it wasn't grief maybe it was loneliness or maybe those 2 things have always been intertwined

[Krys @krystlx]

bruh 🫩🫩🫩

[Krys @krystlx]

that feeling of clinging to the “good moments” like they’re lifelines, only to have reality crash in and leave you simmering in anger and sadness… it’s exhausting 😪🫩🫠

[Krys @krystlx]

my nervous system had no safe landing spot this week lol

[jess 🏒 @bellysinfinite]

it feels good knowing it’s wednesday and conrad isn’t fighting for his life for once

[R I A ⁷ SAW BTS @bangtitude]

This is so real

[Jenni @hashjenni]

"are you seriously going to cry just because you're stressed?"

me:

[ຸ @fvckfemi_]

so much anger in this small little body. i feel like a chihuahua