i'm gonna be so honest... i'm so much happier when i'm starving myself, like i can actually engage in my hobbies, feel more confident, and i hate myself less. otherwise i'm just falling into depressive episodes, ghosting everyone, and fucking up every other aspect of my life
literally nothing is fun if im not skinny. i don’t wanna brush my hair i don’t wanna see anyone i don’t wanna shop i don’t even feel like a girl it’s the worst
eight months wasted!! 2026 was supposed to be a good year but i havent achieved anything. im so afraid of change and failure that i've wasted years and years of my life