@GQActuallyJLaw if you're a real Jennifer, I want to tell you that you have the most beautiful laugh and I adore you too much. I love not only your characters in movies, but also the real you; in real life. Just have to tell you that! Wishing you happiness
I was okay. Then my #bpd comes again. The medication is not helping at all. Starting to feel Empty and scared. The thoughts to end the life is getting stronger. I need help.. But idk how. I have no one to help me.
Fighting this #BPD is so exhausting, sometimes I feel I can't do it anymore. I feel lonely and hate my self when I remember how I once was... Loved by my friends and do many things in my fun way.
[tw self-harm]
When I’m in distress I get urges to do intense things like self-harm, lie on the floor & scream, run away or shout at the top of my voice.
I think it stems from a desperation to have the intensity of the pain seen, heard & believed.
Kalau sakit, memang ga boleh keluar duduk di keramaian? Cari mood biar ga stress kelamaan di RS? Biar ga bosan makan makanan hambar? Memang culture org sini aneh ya.
I am currently fighting my own demon thoughts, and it drains my energy alot. I need help, just I don't know who will be here for me, and hug me while I am hurting. #BPDChat#bpd#depression
And this is getting worse! I only think about death. But i don't want to be alone, I feel so lonely like nobody understands and really wants me #bpdchat#BPD#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
I am literally just lying on the floor, not wanting to do anything. I need someone I can trust, and love to want me and need me. #bpdchat#BPD#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder