one of those "my charmed professional wrestling life things" is that in the wrestling sense of the people you train/work with/under are family, i'm kind of a distant relation to the samoans
actually learning the answer to, "what if you surprise yourself with how badly you're gonna do" [get over it and move on to the next thing] was more sense-of-self building than any of the times the opposite happened
it happens to me every now and again. it feels good and it's encouraging to my desire to keep getting better but it's not really a profound or relevatory experience