@yadirawr There are no words for what is happening to me right now. If there are I'm afraid to speak them or type them.
I'm exaggerating, obviously. Not fortunate enough to die just yet.
But Yadi, I swear it feels like my chest will explode and I'll pass from spontaneous combustion.
"I'd been shown the abyss and wasn't sure if I had leaped in or been pulled back from the precipice. It was an almost purely physical sensation, because I certainly wasn't thinking: my heart was racing, I had trouble breathing..."
Turn of Mind/Alice LaPlante