when you’re soooooo self-abandoning and self-sacrificing that even saying one small sentence that feels true to you in that moment feels like you’re doing something wrong and you’ve gone TOO far already with boundaries
i don’t think anyone will ever really understand what i’ve gone through these past years, & i don’t think i’ll ever really be able to explain it. there kind of aren’t words for a lot of it. i am trying to make peace with that &be okay w the idea that its just for me to understand
how do i survive as someone who doesn’t believe in hard work, is ugly to most people, unconcered with societal ideals of success. thinks life should be easy and fun, and is lazy. genuinely
I hate how basically all mental health advice boils down to "You just gotta develop a tolerance for the pain and learn how to ignore it!" and its like bruh the house is on fire I am burning alive telling me just to get used to it is absolutely not helpful I am dying 😭
pretty shitty how baseline human activities like singing, dancing and making art got turned into skills instead of being seen as behaviors
so now it's like 'the point of doing them is to get good at them' and not 'this is a thing humans do, the way birds sing and bees make hives.
have any of you ever been so horrifically mentally unwell that you constantly switch between wanting to tell nobody ab how bad it is and wanting to beg someone for literally any kind if help💀
Ignorando o absurdo de falar que bruxos e fadas são heteros. Eu genuinamente não entendo esse negócio de sereias serem lésbicas, tipo e só pq elas matam homens? Isso p mim n e necessariamente lesbico e sensato. Eu q n ia perder meu tempo pensando em homem nem q seja p matar ele
sereias sao literalmente das lesbicas pelo amor de deus do que voces tao falando tao inventando coisa ja
vampiros sao dos bissexuais
sereias sao das lesbicas
lobisomens sao dos gays
(e ainda me arrisco a dizer que:
fadas e bruxos, eu sinto muito, mas sao de heteros.....)
it always circles back to how people perceive or understand level 1/2 autism. most people don’t revere it as a genuine disability. it’s moreso viewed as a choice or skill issue. they think it’s a personal failure to be affected by the disorder, as if advice will fix it.
A lot of my behavior will make sense once you find out one of my primary coping mechanisms is trying to assert control over trauma by striving to prevent other people from ever having to feel this way
I feel like the main character in kafka's metamorphis, I am stuck as a disgusting creature that isn't able to do anything and slowly everyone around me loses any goodwill or compassion they had for me