Conversations with my OCD

Anonymous 37yo OCD fighter, husband and father. Diagnosed at 13yo. Tweeting conversations with my #ocd. Sometimes funny, sometimes sad, sometimes both.

[Conversations with my OCD @ocdsmh]

ocd: you need to fall asleep

me: i'm actively trying

ocd: tomorrow will be ruined if you don't fall asleep asap

me: you're not helping

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@thejesshinds Well said

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@LucyMason217 Super frustrating

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@lesbiangideon Have you stumbled onto https://t.co/VrH0GQM3cF?

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@ShallelujahTV So glad you have that relief and confirmation! Welcome, officially now, to the club 😀

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ocd: it's your fault if anyone falls down the stairs

me: why?

ocd: because they might not know or remember to be careful unless you tell them

me: so i'm supposed to stand by the staircase and tell everyone to be careful? in perpetuity?

ocd: yes

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@Haley_Biddanda This is really amazing. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences!

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me: that was a nice thanksgiving!

ocd: sure, i guess. but did you spend the optimal amount of time with each member of your family?

me: i didn't bother calculating...

ocd: start calculating. you might find that thanksgiving was deeply suboptimal.

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@community_ocd Congratulations on the new job! I get that. I get so worried about missing something critical in a work context and then asking very stupid questions.

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ocd: you're never listening to people...

me: true. i'm often lost in ocd-triggered rumination, so sometimes i can't focus on what people are saying.

ocd: ...therefore everyone thinks you're a piece of shit who never listens.

me: i'm not sure that's an appropriate conclusion.

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ocd: choose that emoji wisely.

me: this simple smiley seems pretty harmless...

ocd: too harmless, perhaps. a smiley that a serial killer would use, perhaps.

me: you know, i'll just hop on the phone to avoid any misunderstandings.

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@arielmaelambe Me too! It's so absurd.

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@GearStrike Right there with you

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@Yitzy___ Amazing! 🙌

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ocd: you know how you feel physically uncomfortable right now?

me: yeah, i'm hoping to feel better tomorrow

ocd: have you considered that you might just be in pain for the rest of your life?

me: i hadn't

ocd: well, food for thought

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@Samanja09 Not frontend specifically, but I've found OCD + software engineering to be a challenging combination. Software engineering is a context that rewards me for performing compulsions that perpetuate and worsen my OCD.

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@traversymedia @CHBernasconiC 👋 from a fellow software engineer with OCD and social anxiety. Awesome that you're taking a break!

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ocd: i'm bored. know what that means?

me: oh no...

ocd: yup. let's fill that space with an onslaught of anxieties.

me: can't we just be bored for once?

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ocd: let's start each day with an uncountable set of anxieties that blend together into a general malaise!

me: so that's one option. but what if we started the day feeling positive and energized?

ocd: have you seen our list of anxieties? you and your loved ones might die today!

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ocd: pick that eye crust out of your eye

me: who cares?

ocd: it just feels wrong to leave it in there

me: but seriously, who cares?

ocd: look, it's either me or the eye crust. one of us needs to go.

me: ...then obviously i'll keep the eye crust

ocd: that backfired

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@NateBlanchett When I'm tired, my energy to fight the OCD in giant exposure battles is very limited.