@rowenavart i grew up not know the name of any plants around me. beginning ecological restoration work grounded me in a literal sense. made me see the history/legacy of colonization and unchecked extrsative industries. now its unignorable, i see this living history everywhere
From knowledge of bodies and sex education to knowing what grows and lives around you, modernity has done a fantastic job at producing an ignorant, dependent, captive population under the guise of "enlightenment"
a clear indicator that i’m having another depressive episode is my inability to get excited about anything and feeling like there’s nothing to look forward to. i’m not running away from that feeling though, because despair is also an indicator that my heart is working .
“Look I uh I found something. Something in the store. A place. bu but It uh it shouldn’t be there. But it is. Dontcha see? look I…I know how this this sounds, but It’s uh it’s MAssive in there.”