going back on this acc after 1 month of recovery is ... something .. I'm so sad for the me of the past but so scared for the futur me, truly hope I'll never be in those state again, stay safe everyone π love yourself β‘
I really want to send a message to my ex bestfriend bc I miss her but I know it's a really really bad idea so I'm just waiting for the feeling to go away
gonna break my fast with a small sweet potato bc that literally the only healthy thing I have in my house and I'm too tired and too depressed to fight with myself about eating or not so fun day yeah
seeing idols with no thigh gap or else makes me feel even worth because they're actually really pretty and I'm just ugly, ugly when I'm fat ugly when I'm skinny ugly all the time not matter what, yeah I'm just ugly
a girl from my classe always say " it's so fun to eat, I want to eat all the time, if I could I would eat all the time at anytime " and I can't believe that people actually think like that, like, they actually ENJOY food and eating like WOAW