@erinmurray16@Druski715 Haha right because after this rando harassed me on twitter, I really wanted to give him my money and time LOL no baby I returned to my normal life I was living without the presence of jelly roll in it
when there’s a particular part of you that you reject (eg you find the selfish side of you “disgusting” or despicable), then you’re actually more likely to act from that part
by rejecting a part of ourselves we force it out of our conscious awareness, which means we’re less likely to notice when we’re acting from that part
so we oscillate between unconsciously acting it out and berating ourselves for doing so… and we can stay trapped in that tension forever
the way out? forgiveness, ownership, integration… not an easy path, but necessary