it's weird for so many people who don't know you, to have such strong opinions about you, which they voice not to you but to each other, and are opinions you know would probably be different if they hung out with you IRL. It's just a straight-up bizarre sensation.
i appreciate people who call me out on my shit when i'm wrong or could've handled shit better, but only if it's with the intentions of me fixing it and becoming a better me not with the intentions of putting me down and making me feel shitty to then make yourself feel better.