this was me exclusively until I was 22 and imo aside from making some really wonderful friends in fandom spaces it is 1000% better to just be obsessed with things in your own head
the concept of meeting hudson williams at a film festival and getting the chance to talk to him and you spend the whole interaction with a camera shoved in his face recording. you people are not real 😭
Lived long enough to see the big 3 stans go from making fun of bts for being too broke to afford a producer, to lying about their respective big companies being "nearly bankrupt" to force the underdog story lmaoao
some of u just want to punish shane for wanting to stay closeted for very valid and legitimate fears and reasons that get proven right when they are outed ..
Seriously one of the best short horror sequences in the history of film to date. Even before the Pale Man has *done* anything, the wrongness of him makes you want to scream.
@calxcanary idk why Ilyas s1 fears are valid but Shane's in s2 won't be... even though being out wasn't a magic fix for Ilyas mental health either, and shane desperately wanted to be out too (despite what ppl claim) but was rightfully cautious
immediately clicked out of a fic that had shane as a bad hockey player, au ilya doesn't even play hockey and was still a better skater than him. no way this author even likes shane lol.
@calxcanary esp when despite the HE... all of Shane's fears do come true once outed lol; he's immediately treated diff by his team who turn against him- even his best friend basically questions his honour, and has to leave the legacy he built and his position for less pay/no captaincy :/
@calxcanary the number of authors who blatantly write you're a pos if you're afraid to be out is crazy. can't tell if they're straight when they say the relationship isn't "real" unless they're out or just really privileged to be hating closeted/scared ppl like this tbh.
@calxcanary oh. and scolding/lecturing him as a straight person while shane was lying in a hospital bed after being attacked for being too much of a coward to not immediately wanna be out 😂
@calxcanary funny you say that I have muted authors for their clear anti shane bias. that one author who had hayden of all ppl call shane (in this au is 30 and hasn't been with ilya) a disappointment THREE TIMES for not immediately being confident/out the second he has his first gay kiss 😵💫
@calxcanary that was my EXACT problem, but no they said he was trying but just couldn't do it 😵💫 and ilya smokes a whole pack a day and sits at work (so not an athlete at all) and still was better than shane. I think he'd khs if he lost a race to this au ilya not think it was admirable 🙃
@calxcanary 🙃 that's my exact problem. in this au he still doesn't date/is focused on hockey but ur telling me no cup wins?? when no one else is his equal to fight for it?? gave me the ick to see shane not being the best lmfao
just had an 80 yr old Russian customer talk at me for 10 minutes (he speaks no english) and I was so focused on trying to just asborb anything but all I got was "more" so thanks ilya/connor 😂 (we both got excited I got one word)