my slop bowl omad!!! 650-ish cals!!! lettuce, spinach, mushrooms, garlic, rice, gardein fake chicken, sweet potato, & sauce i made w garlic & vegan mayo & hot sauce :3 I HAD TO PUT IT OVER A PICTURE I TOOK BC MY FEET COULD NOT BE CROPPED OUT!
I can't even stand being touched by my partner rn bc im so disgusted with myself, i rlly cant believe they are attracted to me & they MUST bc using me purely for self gratification & it makes me upset & then i get even more upset with myself for forcing my own feelings onto them
having an eating disorder is genuinely so horrible and time consuming every time i relapse I completely lose myself 🙃 all i think abt is eating and working out and my body. I can't even have a proper conversation lately bc im so preoccupied thinking abt it lol
i haven't been reading or journaling or drawing or swimming (swimsuit like this??? self harm) or out taking pictures or crocheting or literally anything. I can't think about anything but my weight and everything that led me here urggh
i want to post a body check soo bad bc im fat as hell and will get torn apart (meanspo😛) but i dont think im strong enough. when i was 14 someone said i had bad eyebrows and I have spent almost 10 years shaving them. i WILL kill myself
3 hour walk ! found the sweetest most beautiful lost cat & tried for a ridiculous amount of time to contact owners but she had a stupid fuck ass scan tag w/ no info :( beautiful baby i hope she is okay
going for hour + walks every night, eating under 700 cals, working out, drinking sooo much water. I GAINED 6 LBS. SIX ENTIRE POUNDS someone fucking kill me