now im starving, and im not sure wherher i should eat or not because of the combining factors of having not earned my meal and having to go another $20 into debt
it doesnt feel earned it doesnt feel good but its my only way to eat a meal today lawl
my body hurts so badly. im so fristrated. i cannot get high. at all. it doesnt matter how many bowls i smoke ๐ and my body hurts sonfucking bad
i feel like shit because i woke up late and did LITERALLY nothing for 5 hours
weed : has shown to help people physically and mentally, albeit there can be negative impacts
alcohol : doesnt help people at all. exacerbates emotions
my friend: cant smoke weed anymore because military so sheโs only drinking now
woww!
god i am jusf miserable i have no friends i have no drive no money i dont know what to do with mtself i feel broken in a waythat i canโt put myself back together
genuinely the worst ime to be an adult lol im feeling kind of suicidal
in a longtwrm way
not like i wanna kill myself right now but i donโt want to keep living in a world where i have to work and pay just to be safe and fed
woke up over an hour ago and havent gotten out of bed because genuinely whats the point lol
having no money genuinely makes me miserable
it feels worthless to even try when i know i donโt have accessibility to the things i need or want
@umbercady@surrviiver additionally, iโd like to be able to bond w those people over some ships, but as a cis woman i feel like one of those people who fetishizes homosexuality. especially if i spoke about it the way others did, and matched their energy
@umbercady@surrviiver <:/ yeah i am a cis woman but i am very much omni w. a preference for men and in communities online with other queer people theyre mostly very very gay and uh i just feel like iโm perceived as gross , like ppl dont wanna hear what i have to say, because itโs not. gay
@DevMajorAbel itโs ambiguous not confirmed <:/ i kinda believe it was a form of validating peopleโs headcanons while keeping it ambiguous the way they keep ships ambiguous. jax never came out, and iโm not aโyes he isโ or โno he isnโtโ person but ur dogging on a real person 4 smth not canon
tried being honest (and so careful with my words) with an employer about my attendance issues at past jobs and she ghosted me for 17 days after the in person interview where she nearly affirmed iโd get hired then said hey sorry so no