dee

18+ if you will
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[dee @violentte_]

dee
18
funger , fnaf , pokemon , idk it’s 4 am i’ll make this better later

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@Niflheim_Jewel @estrogwen_ holy ouch

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now im starving, and im not sure wherher i should eat or not because of the combining factors of having not earned my meal and having to go another $20 into debt
it doesnt feel earned it doesnt feel good but its my only way to eat a meal today lawl

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my body hurts so badly. im so fristrated. i cannot get high. at all. it doesnt matter how many bowls i smoke 😂 and my body hurts sonfucking bad
i feel like shit because i woke up late and did LITERALLY nothing for 5 hours

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weed : has shown to help people physically and mentally, albeit there can be negative impacts
alcohol : doesnt help people at all. exacerbates emotions
my friend: cant smoke weed anymore because military so she’s only drinking now
woww!

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@OutInOrbit @Oliviaiie you forgot papi from beverly hills chihuahua

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so far i want a magic wand and salad fingers merch for my birthday

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god i am jusf miserable i have no friends i have no drive no money i dont know what to do with mtself i feel broken in a waythat i can’t put myself back together

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genuinely the worst ime to be an adult lol im feeling kind of suicidal
in a longtwrm way
not like i wanna kill myself right now but i don’t want to keep living in a world where i have to work and pay just to be safe and fed

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woke up over an hour ago and havent gotten out of bed because genuinely whats the point lol
having no money genuinely makes me miserable
it feels worthless to even try when i know i don’t have accessibility to the things i need or want

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@umbercady @surrviiver additionally, i’d like to be able to bond w those people over some ships, but as a cis woman i feel like one of those people who fetishizes homosexuality. especially if i spoke about it the way others did, and matched their energy

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@umbercady @surrviiver <:/ yeah i am a cis woman but i am very much omni w. a preference for men and in communities online with other queer people theyre mostly very very gay and uh i just feel like i’m perceived as gross , like ppl dont wanna hear what i have to say, because it’s not. gay

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@DevMajorAbel

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@DevMajorAbel it’s ambiguous not confirmed <:/ i kinda believe it was a form of validating people’s headcanons while keeping it ambiguous the way they keep ships ambiguous. jax never came out, and i’m not a“yes he is” or “no he isn’t” person but ur dogging on a real person 4 smth not canon

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i thought honesty would be better ://

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tried being honest (and so careful with my words) with an employer about my attendance issues at past jobs and she ghosted me for 17 days after the in person interview where she nearly affirmed i’d get hired then said hey sorry so no

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is it ok that i kind of like courtney love

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someone said the world is ending bc there was an earthquake in florida girl the tectonic plates cover the entire globe

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fuck i miss you so so muxh i would give anything to be in your bed again and i hate myself for it

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unghfhfhf he’s so cute

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ugh i might at least make a new account