"You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life." - Albert Camus
Pernah gak…
Kita decide buat kasih seseorang ruang.
Jadi kita diem. Gak nyari. Gak ngganggu.
Tapi di dalam diem itu, justru kita sendiri yang malah tercari-cari.
Mau ngetext, tahan. Mau nanya kabar, tahan. Ngeliat sesuatu langsung keinget, tahan lagi.
Ternyata kasih ruang ke orang lain juga artinya belajar ngontrol hati sendiri.
Dan bagian itu lebih susah dari yang gue kira.
Algún día otra mujer tendrá el privilegio de estar toda la vida junto al hombre que yo más amé.
Y ella recibirá, sin rogar, todo el amor que yo exigí a gritos.
I’m tired” can mean:
I’m drained.
I’m depressed.
I’m overstimulated.
I’m lonely.
I’m emotionally fucking done.
I’m overwhelmed.
But we say “tired” because it’s easier than explaining the pain we are suffering
my final act of love won't be a hundred missed calls or endless messages. It will be the silence you always seemed to want.
i won't beg for your time, your replies, or your effort anymore. I'll quietly step back and let you feel the space where my love once lived.
That silence isn't anger, it's me finally choosing my peace over proving my worth.
And if you ever notice my absence, know that it wasn't easy. I stayed longer than ! should have. But loving you was never meant to cost me myselt, so I chose to let go, quietly.