I’m not sure what magic caused this to appear in my timeline but it gave me a nudge at a point where I really needed a nudge (or maybe a good hard shove). It also spoke to a core fear: that I’d get there and nobody would believe me. How can this be a problem now at 48?
Perhaps the most shared characteristic of undiagnosed adult ADHD that makes me go “GET THEE TO A DOCTOR!” is this:
“What if I don’t have this? What if I’m just a shit person? What if I really am lazy/selfish/a failure?”
My lovelies, has anyone ever asked: what if you’re not?
@IntuitMachine Since I don’t have an internal image to work off, I have to derive the visual on the fly. If there are any gaps in either my knowledge or understanding, I can’t draw it at all because I can’t draw something I don’t understand. This causes issues with concept modeling.
@IntuitMachine I’m very good at understanding complex systems and interactions precisely because I don’t have to render them internally as 2D or 3D images. I can feel the interactions between components as they change with time. Representing this in drawing, however, can be a challenge.
CHML had been on the air for 97 years. On their last full day of operation, they weren't screaming about political enemies. They were talking about the night sky and how the kids and parents of Hamilton could best enjoy this special, spectacular thing. Oh well.
@SeanMorleyDixon Recognition and visualization aren’t the same thing, though. One is basically pattern matching, the other is experiential.
When you see a loved one, you don’t pull up an image from memory to validate that yes, it’s really them. You know instantaneously.
The nurse said she needed some urine to test for potassium. "K," I said. Silence. "I bet everyone makes that joke," I say. She's like "In 15 years of nursing not one person has made that joke"