The Hive

pronouns they/them have DID Officially diagnosed. Transgender bluesky Brittanybee. Body age 39.

[The Hive @Califer9]

One of our biggest struggles is dealing with parts that are still stuck in conservative W.V. and Ohio values … it can be rough..

[Apollo☀️🦇 @lurkinglilacs]

@LibbielSystem Part of the nature of being a system is having different perspectives and values and sometimes those different perspectives and values lead to different conclusions. It can be really hard to work with when/if that happens especially when those conclusions are illogical/cruel

[The Hive @Califer9]

@WillowMouseDoll Bras are good for two or three wears if it’s not too hot, but socks and underwear get changed daily.

[The Hive @Califer9]

@paruremars Strong scents and tastes. We keep a pack of Cayenne flakes nearby us so we can take a bit if we notice we’re going into a dissociative episode or flashbacks

[The Hive @Califer9]

That struggle is real.. know Lilith was upset that our group therapy only know us as Brittany, since she’s completely different from Brit… but the one time she tried to tell people the therapist kept calling us Brittany..

[fern || ☕️ in strawpage! @featherleafern]

he has his own name and identity and finds it distressing that the people around him do not know him as himself.
it's like if everyone just suddenly started calling you a different name and pronouns, then got confused when you corrected them, because that's ALWAYS been your name.

[The Hive @Califer9]

… this system shit is not easy… having to deconstruct beliefs that our abusers beat into us with one part after another, while dealing with my own particular problems and navigating my own trauma is exhausting.

[Kalyel🩷🩵🤍 @kalyel_]

com que idade e como foi a de vocês?

[The Hive @Califer9]

@atlasm0m3nts Agreed with y’all. Diagnosed DID and we support endos.

[The Hive @Califer9]

@RUST_V2 Light sheet with a fan? Doesn’t work for us (the air circulation makes it feel like there’s movement in the room, which freaks us out) but might for you :-)

[The Hive @Califer9]

@atlasm0m3nts Think? We do. Unsure since we haven’t found everyone yet.
Bare minimum we have more middles than adults, since a lot of trauma happened then.

[The Hive @Califer9]

@_abyssmalbeings Ours is massive. Several planets metaphorically representing side systems, with vast empty spaces between representing amnestic barriers between systems.

[The Hive @Califer9]

@RUST_V2 We did the 200 odd one…
We have a concerning amount of bad guys in our list

[The Hive @Califer9]

…. This works surprisingly well with protector style alters. Rage baiting Jez to the front might be one of Sean’s favorite things to do…

[Icarus 🌙🎡 @somnolethe]

triggering an alter to front by doing a thing you know they'll show up to yell at you about

[The Hive @Califer9]

@RUSTSICK We have a pain box on our end but yeah…
(though since we’ve started working on building autonomy with it, it’s evolved into a mimic, which is pretty cool)

[The Hive @Califer9]

@stevonniefan It’s tough. Specially if you’ve been the host for a bit. Main thing that helped Sean was coming to the realization (and internalizing it) that it’s not just the host’s life, it’s everyone’s.

[The Hive @Califer9]

@featherleafern @clusterxpansion It’s a trauma disorder, so not only do you get all the fun of alters (and the various types of memory loss with that) you get CPTSD symptoms thrown in as well…

Really wish it was just alters sometimes… hyper vigilance is exhausting.

[The Hive @Califer9]

I'm tired of acting like I don't want to die. // (Ft. Kasane Teto SV2)【S... https://t.co/YdgYVAgctR via @YouTube

[The Hive @Califer9]

This but Seans… we have so many of the fuckers in here (said with love)

[The Hive @Califer9]

@illestdottore I mean, the plurality of DID isn’t what gives us the most trouble. It’s the trauma caused maladaptive coping skills and the CPTSD. I could see why someone would feel fulfilled by the internal friendships that can form, know I enjoy the company of quite a few of our mates.

[The Hive @Califer9]

@lazuritesys Somehow we’ve managed to miss that discourse. Which is good… we have a few (myself included) who don’t really want to source separate.
Even if they’re not real, the memories of me and my friends causing mischief make me happy, and I don’t want to lose that.

[The Hive @Califer9]

@lurkinglilacs Afton in our system has the same issue… just, he knows it’s not real but it doesn’t make them feel less real to him.