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@Thermobolic @IterIntellectus Just watched today. Wayyy too episodic even putting behind this bs. Ending was good just the first 2/3s didn’t even make u emotionally invested

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[Leigh St.John | Inner OS Upgrade @LeighStJohn33]

18 years old:

> Diseased
> Depressed
> Zero hope

Now?

> Overflowing with love
> Met my soul mate & had our first child
> Found my calling coaching 15+ entrepreneurs on the path to inner peace

Here's my story

Rewind 22 years

I’ve just finished up in Primary school

A blissful village school deep in the depths of rural Devon

90 students

All of us friends

All I know is love, unity, freedom

Joy and peace come naturally

We graduate and go to the “big town” secondary school

800+ students from myriad backgrounds

My first day at school?

I see a single event that shifts my mindset & belief system for the next 9 years

And it involved my best friend’s big brother..

Let me give you some background

This dude’s name was Tommy..

I thought Tommy was the coolest dude in the world..

Not only was he super tall and immeasurably strong..

He knew all the WWE moves by heart

(Which made him a certified badman)

He had kicked my arse wrestling more times than I care to count

I couldn’t conceptualize of anyone more worthy of my admiration

He was essentially immortal in my eyes

The first thing I see when I get off the school bus?

Tommy running for his damn life

3 massive dudes chasing him down..

Only to beat the ever living shizer out of him

This single event..

And the subsequent rumors of new kids getting their heads flushed down toilets..

Shook the foundations of lil’ ol’ sensitive Leigh’s foundations to the absolute core

In the classroom & on the playground there were fights, mind games and power plays happening at every moment of every day

Life became a constant battle to survive

Of trying to insert oneself into the highest part of the social hierarchy to avoid conflict

School work?

It never even factored into my mind

Just getting through the day without becoming a target was my main priority

Back home in my village, I still experienced the bliss, joy and expansive openness to life that was my norm up until that point

I still remember, every time we’d get past a certain crossroads that signaled I was in my village I knew I was safe

I could feel my body breathe a sigh of relief

And all the tension, anxiety and defensiveness flow away

Life continued on much in the same way over the course of the next 5 years or so

Exacerbated by radical doses of testosterone flooding my bloodstream and an extreme addiction to World of Warcraft adding additional strain between me and my family..

And here’s the thing

Despite getting in the top set for every subject (apart from Maths) and getting predicted A s across the board for my GCSEs (Jr High exams) I completely flunked

The memory still burns vividly in my mind

Sitting in the car in the school carpark..

Opening the fated package

F B C B E E F

My mother couldn’t hide her look of concern..

Where had it all gone wrong?

I was, of course, incapable of expressing my emotions at that point

Anxiety?

Growth mindset?

WIN OR LEARN?

These weren’t concepts in my mind

This was back when you’d wait 7 mins for a JPEG of a scantily clad woman to load

The internet didn’t exist in the form we know it today

You had to figure things out for yourself

I was utterly lost - Zero direction - Zero clue - Zero hope

Not long after this true tragedy struck

My mother called my 14 yr old sister and me into the living room

The air was thick with a suffocating tension

Seeing both parents holding back tears..

I knew something was deeply wrong..

My Mother blurted out:

“Your Father has 3 months to live”

The next 3 years I entered living hell

To add to the tragedy my Aunt, Grandmother and a player on my football team all died within a short span of time

My Father - Who had been an image of immense strength, immortal vigor and loving support..

Became a brittle shell of his former self under the weight of the radiation flooding his body on a weekly basis

Seeing him mocked coming out of the neighboring village shop for his zombie-like appearance made me boil with rage

Confirming in my mind that one had to conform to survive

On top of all of this..

We had to sell our dream home..

The home I told myself I’d always live in

A beautiful near 1000 yr old farmhouse with 5 acres of land..

Everything that had provided a sense of safety and solace in a world that was revealing to me..

In ever greater degrees..

Just how cruel, vicious and cutthroat it was..

Had been ripped out from underneath me

Combine this with standard teenage angst..

Zero options or vision for moving forward..

And self-worth that was approximately zero..

I found myself stumbling from one thing to another..

In deep unconscious..

I still found joy in friends, the beach, nature and even video games..

But utter despair regarding any sort of “path moving forward”

Like many - I turned to alcohol

That became my safe place from 16 to 18..

As I went out “with the lads”

I’d end up getting in fist fights..

And dancing in a night club wishing I was ANYWHERE but there

It was the same old BS from school..

Just now with alcohol and drugs

There was a string of incidents..

Some of which were life-threatening and could have easily ended up with me dying..

(But I cannot mention here)

When I reflect upon it now..

I think that unconsciously I was seeking annihilation

The kicker was when my Mother..

Who had lost her Mother, Sister & Husband in a short space of time..

And who was dealing with 2 rebellious and wild children..

Had to pick me up at 4AM from Barnstaple Hospital

My teeth had been knocked out..

My lip split open

Eye red with blood

I still have zero recollection of what happened to this day

I saw the sadness in her eyes..

But also the all accepting love of a Mother

That which goes beyond “right” and “wrong”

Beyond any judgment

There was something so pure, so unsullied in that look and her love towards me..

I felt a glimmer of redemption & hope in the vastness of her non-judgemental love

And that was the catalyst for change more profound than I could have imagined

I started embracing a more positive mindset..

Having a greater degree of acceptance to life

Started to see hope..

Where previously there had only been dejection

I stumbled across a thread on esoteric practices for self-empowerment

And found instant solace in learning how to shield myself from negative forces..

Growing up in the previously aforementioned 1000yr old house..

There were a number of ���odd” events that occurred

And this was around the time paranormal activity came out on DVD..

My mind raced with wild possibilities..

Convinced there were demons lurking at the edge of the inky black darkness

Using this mental protection technique was perhaps the first time I’d used my mind as a conscious tool..

Rather than having it as an overbearing master

And the relief it provided was immense

This kick started an inner journey

A path towards freedom

I stopped drinking

Cut out 95% of my friend group

Disappeared off the face of the earth

I was learning, studying, applying and devouring all esoteric knowledge & wisdom I could get my hands on

I ended up purchasing a book

“Kriya Secrets Revealed” by JC Stevens

I started training daily

10 mins of meditation

20 mins

30

40

1 hour

1 hour 20

I’d never worked as hard nor gone as deeply into ANY skill in the past

I was shedding old layers of conditioning rapidly

And finding immense empowerment

As I turned my focus inwardly and started shifting vibration..

The outer world seemed to morph to match my internal perspective

I went back to College (High school) and got various qualifications

But after college..

I was still working at ASDA as a delivery driver..

2 months in?

I became disillusioned with the job

The people

The situation

It all just felt so GRIM

I told my Mum “I quit - I’m not going back”

3 weeks later..

She hands me a brochure about a higher learning program

A 1 year intensive course that will allow me to go to University

“Brilliant - 3 years of not having to work in the “real world”

The following 16 months were incredibly powerful

I felt like a lotus in a pool of muddy water starting to bloom

And after all the work and effort..

Fuelled by a new belief and love for myself..

I ended up getting into University

This was not something I had ever considered even an option for a lowly moron like myself

And yet here I was..

And it felt like just the beginning

I still remember on the first day - Seeing the Sun rise - Realizing I had been reborn

I could say with full confidence and authenticity that I TRULY loved & accepted myself

I felt a supreme sense of liberation

My mind felt like a great fog had been lifted..

I was sharp, could see things in people that they couldn’t see in themselves

That same week after truly stepping into self-love I met my soulmate in a 0.001% chance encounter

But I was starting to realize a powerful truth:

When you align yourself with love, the Universe conspires in your favor

All of a sudden life was alive with opportunities and moments of celebration and joy

Fast forward 3 years of University merriment..

My meditation practice had increased to 4+ hours a day

Constant contemplation

My mind was so sharp that with a slight inclination it would slip into meditative absorption states described as

“Rapture not of the flesh”

Specific, repeatable states of bliss

Kundalini, mystical visions, divine downloads and songs from the heavenly realms..

All of these wonderful, but ultimately transient, experiences led up to a BIG BANG

A direct experiential understanding of the “I AM” realization

The thin thread of attachment to the idea of a separate severed permanently

Along with it went any remaining flecks of doubt about the path

But as the joyous, carefree bliss of University came to and end..

I found myself at another crossroads

My then GF now wife was back in her home country of Malaysia

And we were faced with a decision

Save up
Long distance
Figure out a place to try to make it work

Or simply give up & call it a day

We decided to stick it out

After all we were each other’s first real relationship

And what we had felt pure - I couldn’t imagine life without her

So..

2.5 years of long distance

Eventually we end up in Japan to forge a new life together

3 years in Nagasaki..

4 in Osaka

We finally make the choice to have children

The process goes smoothly

(All glory to God)

And she’s quickly pregnant

Around this time I was starting out on Twitter as an ANON account

I was sharing my thoughts

Building traction, momentum

Coaching a few people on the side for free

At this point I’d been informally coaching in various forms for a number of years

A lot of my advanced Japanese students would say it was more like therapy than a language lesson..

And they were greatly appreciative of that fact

It was always something I was naturally drawn to

Perhaps because one of my core values is help reduce suffering where possible

Sometimes this simply means a genuinely warm “Hello” or “Thank you”

Other times this means snapping someone out of their imposed prison of thought in a very direct manner

I had made a firm commitment years back to be a light unto the world..

Not for personal glory or adoration

But to serve in the only way I knew how

Time goes by

I started to offer paid services

My first client paid $150 dollars for 1 month of coaching

He had a profound perspective shift

And it opened my eyes to both my true calling & a different way of operating

Of having time and location freedom

Of being able to create from the heart

2 clients who were getting coached for free signed up for 2 months of paid coaching

Then another client came..

Then 3 more..

And in the 7 months I’ve been at this I’ve had the honor to coach over 15 entrepreneurs and individuals from all round the world

Some were 7-8 Fig biz owners

Some were high level sales people at fortune 100 companies

A few were even University students…

But they all shared a common thread

They wanted greater degrees of mental freedom

Deeper depths of peace

To ascend their level of consciousness and taste just how sweet life can be

When you want to make a GENUINE SHIFT it's never easy

You're dissolving DECADES worth of conditioning

It was challenging at times..

But I can wholeheartedly I truly love what I do

And it’s a gift to be able to help others step into greater depths of freedom

Just this last week I’ve heard things from:

“I can’t actually believe I’m where I’m at right now - I’m insanely grateful to you!”

To

“You’ve taken me deeper than any other coach I’ve ever had”

Even

“I know it sounds bizarre but the sound of the leaf blower filled me with love and made me tear up”

One of the core pillars of my program is this:

Freedom is your natural state

The awe bliss and joy you felt as a child can be accessed RIGHT NOW

In fact - It never went anywhere

It’s just that all the unconscious perspectives that lead to stress, anxiety and beyond obscured that which is naturally yours

Profound peace

Deep freedom

The ability to love and be loved beyond belief

The things that make life so sweet and juicy..

But we drift away from as we get older and entrenched in the grind of adult life

I feel immeasurably blessed to be doing the work I’m doing right now..

To be working with the guys I’m working with

To be able to facilitate people stepping into their own personal power and natural joy

To have a degree of mental freedom and genuine inner peace beyond what I ever conceived possible

That's my for now

Let's see where it goes in 2024

If you made it this far

My gratitude to you for reading, and my love to you for just being you

All glory to God

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@machinegunemily Song ?

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Silica so divine

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@streamerdan Do you do anything else? It looks extremely vibrant

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@Luthien790 @TrickVAL Not a bad idea. I just think they should make a switch where maybe it’s still a sound trip but doesn’t stun them? Or stuns less for more info? I’m not sure just something to tell if some one is there. I would instalock every game lmfao

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@TakeThiamine Complete narcissist behavior. And not to mention… she kinda looked too skinny? What in the world is she talking about with loose skin💀

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@BasedBiohacker Protocol to optimize caffeine and nicotine (lower stress stuff etc)? And protocol to get off nicotine and caffeine with out sides?

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@Man_with_a_van Instacop

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@BioavailableNd What about psoriasis

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I think a story can be considered great when, consensually speaking, people start referring to the characters as if they are real. Think Griffith/Guts dynamic. Everyone has distaste for Griffith, and don’t call him the fallen hero of a fictional story.

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@SolBrah

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@ZherkaOfficial Was listening to this yesterday lol