Ppl underestimate how scary it is to actually get what you’ve always wanted. It takes so much readiness to be able to energetically hold it without going into a horrible overwhelm. It doesn’t happen until you can handle it for a reason
There's something special about dressing well in your 30s and 40s and beyond.
Probably because so few men even bother at that point.
It's similar to being in shape.
It's one thing to be fit (and stylish) when you're 25.
Quite another when you're 45 or 55 etc.
always leave the house earlier than you need to get anywhere because it allows for an expansive moment of connection with yourself that can only be access when you're not in a hurry
If you want confidence, stop aiming to avoid failure. Aim to recover fast. Take the hit, learn the lesson, adjust, repeat. The man who can bounce back becomes fearless over time, because he trusts his ability to rebuild even when things go wrong.
Procrastination is an identity management problem. As long as you haven't started, you are still potentially great and potential is infinite. But actuality is finite and specific and mediocre at first.
Think of it as Schrödinger's talent: the box stays closed and you stay a genius.
We watched the Aldhani arc yesterday and that first ISB scene still stops me dead in my tracks. It's so radically different from everything Star Wars has ever done. Showing the bureaucratic apparatus that drives the Empire, the supervisors fighting each other for control like vultures, the banality of their evil ... Just brilliant.
Nothing you love will stay. Not the people, not the moments, not the version of you that exists right now. The tragedy and the beauty are the same thing.
Everything is slipping through your fingers while you are busy planning for a future that is never promised.
i love nature docs & i recently came across one that hit me super hard. turns out the labords chameleon’s life cycle is extremely short. they live only 4-5 months & immediately die after laying & burying their eggs (which is their only purpose)z
in the final moments their nervous system begins to fail as their brain loses control of skin cells, so random nerve firings cause the skin to randomly change colors which causes a ridiculous art as they slowly die. it’s like sort of a visualization of the brain’s final flickerings.
pristine example of nature’s beauty, tragedy, & brutality at the same time.
A big part of spiritual progression is just giving up. No more striving, no more trying to figure things out, no more fixing. Just total surrender - even defeat. Give into the boredom, there is nothing more to do. And in this total resignation is what you were looking for.
Good shadow work:
Allow yourself to feel completely and utterly ordinary. Not special, nor ascended. Not exceptionally intelligent, attractive, talented, conscious, or good at anything.
If you can sit with that possibility without trying to prove otherwise, your deepest insecurities will come up loudly - then you can surrender the parts of you that need to feel better than everyone else to be worthy of love.