Monday marks 10 years since my assault.
I don’t really know what to feel. All I know is that my body remembers even when my mind tries to move on. Last night the weight of my blankets on my ankles set off a reaction I could not control. I thought I was being tied up again.
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@BradRad5Bradley@CrimeWeeklyPod Great interview, Brad. Hearing your unedited perspective of how the events unfolded the morning of Amy’s disappearance was eye-opening. Keep doing what you’re doing. Also, fuck Renner.
I am thrilled to share that I’ve recently co-founded an advocacy group called Beyond the Verdict: a survivor-led effort to challenge how the public and media understand what really happens behind the scenes in sexual assault trials. 🧵
#hockeycanada#BeyondTheVerdict
Do you know why those sexually assaulted prefer the term "sexual assault survivor" over "sexual assault victim"?Because not only do we have to survive being assaulted, but we have to deal with those who blame us, those who don't believe us, then accept we likely never get justice
I'll be on @cfax1070 with Ryan Price this morning at 8:20am to talk about Beyond the Verdict and our reaction to the outcome of yesterday's court ruling.
https://t.co/1yywnEswjt
@StephenP49@YodaKnows3@WFLAJB@netflix I highly doubt they’ll be paid for participating, that’s not usually how it works. They have more right to have their voices heard than anyone, especially the voices coming from people like you.
Monday, December 9th, 50 years ago today.
Mom and Dad ran errands, went to an open house of a home they were interested in buying, then came home to nap before Dad had to go to work. A few hours later, she was shot dead in our kitchen. 50 years on, still no peace.
I’ve thought of this anniversary for months. What I’d write, the graceful “fuck yous” I’d like to say, the facts that have been edited and discarded, but I realize now no one is listening. That’s not the story anyone wants to hear.
As a lawyer told me, “no offence, Rebecca, but it’s not your story they want, it’s the cops’ and Al’s because it’s crazy!”
I agree. It IS crazy. I’ve never denied that. But shooting a barely 22 y/o mom in the head beside her baby is insane and selfish.
The messages I’ve received from people that have watched #TheUnsolvedMurderofBeverlyLynnSmith or read the Toronto Life article “The Sting”, are disgusting and they’re clearly not the brightest. The fact they would seek me out on socials to say these things tells me that.
The ppl making money from the story remind me of a cover band. The song is already written for them, they take it, tweak it, and the audience doesn’t care it isn’t authentic because it’s entertaining and familiar.
Unfortunately for us there’s no peace in the foreseeable future. The Robert Downey Jr miniseries in production against our family and Al’s wishes have been ignored, and the upcoming civil suit articles will be regurgitated.
So I want you to know a few things before you decide to seek me out and message me…
I’ve told every single person I didn’t care if Al went to prison, I just wanted to know what happened. I told Al myself I did not hate him. He said I just “made his day, his month, his year”.
I tried to help Al find affordable housing. You see, I’m not 100% convinced either. I have “reasonable doubt” as I’d also like hard evidence, not just 1000s of hours of audio of him talking about it that were never aired to the public as it didn’t fit a narrative.
It’s the people feeding us false promises and acting in bad faith to monetize off our misery I can’t stand.
It’s the lawyers cracking jokes in court and on their socials about a young mom’s murder that make me sick.
It’s the audience that ignore we’re real people, not just their Tuesday night entertainment on Amazon that leave a bad taste in my mouth.
It’s the fact that there are no laws in place to protect families’ well-being from the entertainment industry that I find absolutely absurd.
I realize now that in order for my Mom to be at peace, I have to be at peace.
So this is me waving a white flag.
People do not care and will run with whatever facts or misinformation they like, and I can’t control that as much as I’ve tried. It’s crazy to me that the people profiting from our stories have more rights than the people actually involved in the stories they’re editing.
As Michael Lista made reference to a Tragically Hip song in his article “The Sting”, there’s another verse that rings truer…
“You can't be fond of living in the past, cuz if you are, then there's no way that you're gonna last".
As Al said “I know I have crosses to bear when I reach the other side”, so will the people consciously doing damage to an already devastated family.
My sweet, kind, quick-witted, beautiful Mother, Beverly LYN Smith, deserved so much better in her short life here, as well as in her afterlife.
…And, gracefully, Fuck You.
The human remains of a man from Toronto were identified in a cold case spanning more than 40 years as police continue to appeal for information. https://t.co/LvmTLU4x76
After watching Sharon Roche struggle when speaking about her daughter Laci and grandson Conner, I was reminded of this POS and wonder how she could have such a huge following.
#engagewithempathy
@TheRealSmi A loser telling you to lose so they don’t feel so dead inside.
Also…all their followers are fake porn accounts, don’t waste your time on this glutton for attention.