— not have led to magnus marrying her mother and she wouldn't be here to meet nikolai and talk to him. "i know he would've like to know you as well, nikolai."
"more fjerdan by blood, perhaps, but that is where your resemblance of any typical fjerdan man ends, and certainly to any fjerdan royalty." she never did have the misfortune of being too close to the highest powers within the ice court, the advantage of being allowed to attend —
tipping back another mouthful of liquor, he shakes his head slowly, “ fjerda 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒅 war with ravka and they would've found a reason to wage it no matter what —— overthrowing me simply was their best chance at weakening our defences. ” and the most obvious one; the »
— for a father and avoided it altogether so she's entirely confident in saying he is nothing like them.
"i don't think it's so silly. i would have liked to have a brother." it could have all been very different with just a few small changes. but those changes would likely —
a dull ache settles over her chest, a weight that presses down just over her heart. she feels his absence now more than she ever had as a child. she'd always had faith then that he'd return, yet now she's unsure when, or if, she may see him again. —
while he'd assumed as much after his brief encounter with magnus at the gates to kirigin's property, that the man carried a good, albeit wayward, nature ( much like him ), it was a different story to hear it from his daughter's lips, to listen to her speak of him with such »
— all too easily said with hindsight though and she knows that.
shaking herself free of such thoughts as she sits up a little straighter, smooths the fabric of her dress back down. a smile brought back to her lips as she gazes across to nikolai. "you have the same laugh. —
— a faint smile curling her lips upwards. "some novelty thing, usually, or food. there were these candied plums he brought whenever he visited here. they were incredible."
her attention drops to the glass in hand, idly tracing fingertips along the delicate rim before lifting it to drain the remainder and pour a fresh drink. she'd known of a half — brother for many years, though she hadn't meant to, but nosey children can —
at least they seem to have that in common, along with, perhaps, another hundred things they don't know yet. it's strange, how 𝐟𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐫 someone who's essentially a stranger can feel, and the more he gets to know her, the more he finds himself wondering about all »
— there had been enough eyes on the opjers already. it was a relief to finally begin to find some of the answers she'd wanted then.
"he's a good father. he was always busy but he'd make time for me when he could. whenever he came back from any travel, he'd bring me a gift." —
— her light tone matched by a light smile. "unmarried women do not drink in fjerda. i'm more used to hiding my liquor."
she leans back with her drink, taking a sip of the amber liquid, though gaze barely drifts from him. "but i shall keep that in mind for future."
if he spends his time gaping at her, she couldn't pretend she doesn't do the same in return. there's so much of her father — their father — in him that she could fool herself into thinking she knows him better than she truly does.
"old habits, i suppose." she jests, —
horrible, isn't it?
he's all too happy to set aside his steaming mug of flavoured water and seize the second glass, holding it up, 𝒏𝒆 𝒛𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒔𝒕 on his tongue, but he goes along with her fjerdan, the pronunciation only a little awkward.
the liquor burns going down, and »
ah, yes, tea. the worst of all vices.
but she'll oblige him in returning with the bottle, a couple of glasses snatched up for them as she passes by the drinks cabinet once more and takes her place on one of the sofas instead. two drinks poured, her own lifted towards —
unbelievable. he was looking forward to that brandy!
but fine, it's hers. he's just going to indulge in the intoxicating effects of tea and wait right here in case she takes pity and decides to share it ( and maybe what worries she intends to drink away with his liquor, too ).